The Needs of A pair of Lovers

She needs me.
I need her.
We live on the fuel of one another.
She dreamt of her lost of me.
I assured her it would not happen.
The world has been made beautiful because of her.
Shes perfect in more ways than one.
I'm sorry for leaving her to come here.
Those dreams would not be possible if i had stayed.
I miss her all so much.
I love her.

Its 16 days till im home. im so blessed to have such a wonderful life partner waiting for me. shes has been the greatest encouragement in all that i do. without her, im desolated.

I love u.

No matter how many times, u get those dreams, i will never fail to assure u that my love for u remains strong. those three words, i love u. i never ever got tired saying it to u. i will continue sayin these words, and nothing would stop me from ever screaming out. *JOYCE TONG JINGYI, I LOVE YOU

no matter how ardious the journey may be, the world has just you and me. look no further, we are already in haven. the beauty is between us.
i love u, baby.

be safe.

i'll hold u soon.

missing u...

i had the worse nightmare last night.
don't ask me what.
i do not wish to reminisce it.
i can only say that i woke up from my sleep in tears.

i only know, that i'm afraid of losing *her.

dear, never ever leave me.
im afraid.
i'm selfish. yes i am.
i just want you all for myself.

d'ya wish that for yourself too?

i've never felt so much for a person at all.
to a point that these nightmares can bolt me up from my sleep.
(and in the end, straining my neck as a result).
i've never loved someone so much before.
to a point where im so afraid of losing *her.
*she means so much to me, that i do not know how to live my life without *her.
i... need *her so badly.
that i crave for *her everyday.

da, i love you so much.
d'ya know that?

never, ever leave me, ok?

my everlasting beauty

31st May 2008 or rather 1st June 2008 here.

its on the verge of the last day of the month. indicating 2 weeks more till i can hold her agen.
Was talking to her for abit before we got cut off. techie. love or hate em. personally? i choose both. i cant live without it because i neeed it to talk to my love. and the hate bit? the fact that i t causes me extra white hair.it kinda speaks for itself.

anyway, 24hrs has passed since my love's op.pains drawing near. i tell her that i love her so much and that im guna be here for her. at her every need of me.i cant bear a second without her.shes just.. she gives me life (not to be cliche).anyway, im magically drawn by her every move. its awesome.

i just hope she feels better. i miss her so much.im due home soon.told mum i wanted roti prata and masala dosai.yumms. and i want to eat my love's cooking -grins-
would i be able to get such a luxury?? heee..

Love, u are the magic window in my life, i seek to open the window each time i open my eyes. its a window that i will never get bored looking at. i am truly, madly, deeply in love with u. forever.

i love u.

-grinnies-

dada!
why aint you updatting in here!
-pokes dear's ribs-

ahem.

niways.
im on skype with dear now.
that girl's always losing her mouse.
tsk. must be joyce jr la.
kidnapping her mouse.
-pokes ah girl's butt-

heh.

anyways.

im guna get a new phone soon.
yay! i cant wait for tmr, so that i can collect my new phone.
-hops around-
dada got excited too.
because my phone has a 5.0 megapixel camera.
so that gives us more reason to take more photos together.
-grins-

anyways.
this new phone is way cooler than my previous samsung.
heee.
-proclaims proudly-

anyways.

im guna talk to my love now.
and DEAR! UPDATE!

-pokes da's boobs-
=p

ok.
so its my turn to update in our blog dear.
heee.
2nd day aft my surgery.
feeling like a puffer fish.
cheeks all puffed up.
pffffftsssssssssssssss.

anyhows.
am on skype phone with my love now.
she's such an adorable love.
ahhh.... she's mine.

*screams* "TENDY CHING CHI VEI! I LOVE YOU TO BITS!!!"

The Loves of A Sleeping Beauty

27th May 2008

Countless days till im home. near but yet so far. awoke by my stinky alarm for class at amidst the cold morning. Still spewing smoke. Downed a bowl of cereal in 10minutes flat.Its a wonder how my tummy takes it all. anyway, had classes for abt an hour. not alot to learn frm for today's lect.its got its days..
After classes, headed back to the hall to get some studyin done. and a 30min powernap.its a good one.-grins-
Just flagged a morning call to my beautiful gal (yes, she is that sleeping beauty i refer to). Her sleepiness makes my heart skip a beat but yet, makes my heart ache.shes lacking in sleep, having to run the proposal on her own and making amendments to OUR business -grins-. its my pride and joy to have such a hardworking partner. Anyway, i let her get on with more sleep. its crucial for her. she'll dip into being ill if she lacked of it.well.. i hope she does get back into deep slumber, having known her, shes one of light-sleepiness.Poor booboo.love her so much.

I had another episode last nite. I was so scared of losing her*. But yet again assured, by her*. We are gonna fight this battle to the very end. no one. no one will come between us.-clenches fist- she* needs me, I need her. Its gonna be the run to the end. whhooosh.

anyway, its just simple, we drive on the fuel of love. its priceless. its undoubtful. its gracious. its her*.
i love u baby.

due home soon.... -toothy grin-

cheerios

24th May 2008

Cold winter has came knocking on the door.(Oh yeah, emoted!). Spews of smoke came off me in the last couple of nights. the unpleasants. the lacks of her, drives the cold more intently.
As i sit, awaiting for her return from the muskins, i lain, thinking of her beautiful smile once agen. i picked up a slip of paper, markin the last day we held each other in our arms.that wasnt too long ago.
Awaiting for her is of utmost joy to me. she has waited.and now i have.shes beautiful. The erks of dinner, approaches. I cowardly hide. The grotesque almost seem so unbearable, but yet, it had taken a monotony towards me. how sad.
What keeps me breathing, is the likes of her touch once agen.is the scent in her hair, when she stands beside me.it lingered.never left.never ignored.
The days are numbered.The nights can be counted. The drive to see her once agen edges me on. im not far,for now.
I pray for her everyday.praying that she would be safe.countless thoughts runs through my head, before i lay to rest. Her eyes flashed across just as mine closes.how perfect.

lovely is the name of a girl who i yearn to have and have got.
lovely is the eyes of a girl whose smile brightens up my days
lovely is the larf of a girl whose words make my heart melt.
lovely is you.

20th May 2008

Completely shut frm the coldness outside tonight. windows jammed shut, door's closed and heater cranked up to the max. im not suffocating, because i have her*.
Another worthless day. did catch up with my love. who had finally attained sufficient rest after all the work she had to do at the buddhist event. Im happy and glad, that my love has found her true religion, shes a staunch buddhist. and i have faith that she would do well in it. and hopefully in time to come, i can be like her* anyway, im writing this, as my sweet lil one heds off for dinner. (that she had cooked!) man, i really miss her cooking so mch. the days are number till im home. its slow but yet fast. (if u catch my drift)i must start to buck up in my studies. i have so many ppl that i dont wanna disappoint. my lover, my parents, the world. it awaits me and her. i have to do this well. i guess its a source of reliance. knowing that u got 'paper'.

my love asked that i love her forever. undoubtedly, i definitely would. i could never see anything wrong between us. shes beautiful. and i finally know, I DESERVE HER. thats one thing i cud proudly acclaim, the rest, i'll wait till i get my 'paper' =X.

green, red, black.
colours of truth.
whats green without red.
whats black without green and red.
whats love?

love is the delights of two unknown people who greeted each other at first sight. love is the magic of two individuals who made a pact to stay together forever.
thats love.

after a few days of voluntary work at the ABC buddhist centre, for vesak day...
i'm more enlightened.

yeah right.
more enlightened.

anyhoos.
im guna stop being a lazy ass and start to continue working on my proposal.

da... im passing the blog to you.
-grins-
and my lovey dovey just let out a loud sneeze.
heee.

big kisses!

16 May 2008

Its exactly a month till my exams end and till im home with my gal. I'm so excited. Thats why im keepin up with my assignments, it drives time by, and would help me get nearer to the date that i come home. Anyway, nothing's been up these few days, just doing up assignments and occasional stray offs to the movies folder. -grins- and i just found out smtg to occupy time. Gym. yes. its a puny shitarse gym here. but it wud do for now. until i head hm and get a proper workout *grins.
My sweetest love, is at a buddhist event as i write this. shes probably gettin all busy. it must be so hard for *her. but im so proud of *her. And *she asked me if i ever mind *her being a buddhist. that cute lil pea of mine.

Dar, it never bothered me
If u are a christian or a buddhist or
if u bestow urself into any other religions.

because,

Love itself is a religion.
Im completely engulf by it.
And i strongly believe in *it.
Im satiated.

Im in love. truly in love.
None can break us apart.
I'm happy. =) seriously.

Anyway, had practical at the poultry today, i saw, for the very first time, the slaughtering of chickens. Not an all too pretty sight. but i've stopped on pork, i cant forgo another meat, can i? Whats life without chicken? im sorry. i guess im just human after all. *shrugs*
Yeh, and i ended practical late, resulting in worries from my dar. i felt so bad after, to have her worry for me despite being busy and all. ah, i never had anyone who cares for me that much before. i like the feeling. its good. -smiles-

Thanks baby.
Thanks for loving me.
I will promise to love you forever.
I will.

i woke up pretty early today.
10am, hoping to catch dada in time online after her pract.

im talking to my sweetest thing now. =)

im straining my brain juice to try and work my proposal out.
man, i hate doing proposals.
pffft.

anyhoos.
dada told me of her interesting pract session.
practically shoving her hand into the anus of a cow.
dada can tell me the warm-ness of the inside.
and how the cow keeps contracting like as if she has the urge to shit.

anal fark.
the warmth of the rectum.
oh gosh.

im glad im not there to witness, or to experience the anal fark.
for sure, i'll puke my lunch or guts out.
acks.


anyways.
speaking of which. lunch.
ordered MAC.

im hungry.
tummy growling and roaring like a lion.
heh.

im going out tomorrow for some religious voluntary work.
at aljunied.
will be out the whole day tomorrow.
eeeeks. that means i cant talk to my lovey lovey!
0.0

ahhh.
lunch time!

yawnies...

sometimes, i just do not understand parents.
tsk.

im almost doing nothing now.
ok. maybe just a lil.
im typing in blog, listening to music, waiting for da to come online... missing my lovely, talking to my friends online...
is this, considered a lot?
heh.

o wells.

dada's online.
and im guna talk to her now.
finally.

(but she's busy eating her nuts and raisins while talking. sooner or later, she will become like the fat rat in my house. tsk)

i just hanged up the call with dada on skype
man, was i reluctant to off the webcam.
but then again, it's eating up data at dada's side.
so, we have to close the webcam just to save up data for dada.

the hornyy basstard's out for lunch now.
and im missing her badly.
i bet she does too..! *grins*

and she's coming home soon.
YAY!

anyhooossss.
im feeling bored now, with da away from the com.
i shall pick on fat fat to entertain meself.
adios.

dadadada.
you are the wonders of my life.

AH... yay! i cud finally see my love n she cud see me too. i must admit that sometimes, technology can be quite a pain. but i guess there are the good times too. my lovely gal, is gettin all stressed up over wrk. and i really wanna be there for her.anyway, my tum's growling. thats quick.tsk.
BABY!!!!!!!! *screams* i love u. dont stress out baby. u have the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen. that glint i see each time i sed something, is just so.. ah... speechless. anyway, i just got back frm Brissy. its probably the last time i'll be there until i come bck frm the holidays. i had gathered some last minute stuff for *her and my family. now im back in the halls prepin myself to start studyin and finishin up the semester and have a good holiday with *her, when i come back.
MY WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU AND MY STUDIES.
I LOVE THAT IDEA.
ITS BEING REAL
ITS BEING TRUE.
ITS HELPING ME FIND WHAT I WANT IN THIS LIFE.
AND THATS YOU.
YOU ARE PART OF MY LIFE ALREADY.
I CANT DO WITHOUT U.
There u go, thats my weakness.i need u. its a good weakness. hur.
i love u.

4 more weeks to go. hang on!
loves.

WOOTS~!

whoppeeees.
im now on the line with dada in skype.
finally! we can webcam with each other.
-grins-

dada's saying some foreign language (which i pretended not knowing what dada's trying to say).
but yeh. we read each other's mind like so.... perfectly.
we know what's on each other's mind.


and yes.
im making da update in here regulary.
since she's missed a few days update.
gahs.

dada!
your turn~!

-grins-

Happy Mother's Day! (although im not a mother yet.... but still.....)

As stated in the title *points to the main entry title above*
today's mother's day.
in case you are wondering, why am i @ home instead of celebrating this day with mum, let me just briefly reveal my plan for today.
Earlier on, a few days back, i've treated my own mother (with my dad joining the feast of course) to Thai accent.
so today, the actual day, will be a gathering for Mums (yes. mums. with all the aunties heading down to my grams place).
arranged a catering buffet for them. so that they can eat their fill.
-grins-
so, that's basically, what's gonna happen today for mother's day.

anyhooows.

baby's enjoying herself at some koala sanctuary.
(she's talking to koalas and wombats, for god's sake).
because that's what she did when she was on a phone conversation with me.
proclaiming that they are really cutsie lil sweetie pies.
humpfx.
i swear to the core.... fat fat's so much cuter.
those koalas? fat and lazy and CLUMSY and SMELLLLY!
*ahem*okokok. no discrimination of animals. (chill animal lovers!)
the fat and lazy part's just a joke, meant to spite my lil one of her putting her attention to the animals while talking to me (and not paying attention to my conversation with her. pffft.).
im an animal lover too ok? (so is my dada).
i think animals are such adorable creatures every to roam the earth.
such darlings. (ah...cept for those creepy crawlies that can freak the shit outta me. =/).

oh wells.


i just texted my love.
and i need to transfer some shit data into the shit database.
only da knows what i mean. *winks at da*

ciaoz!


*you are such a beautiful angel, who consistenly and constantly warms my heart with your endless, beautiful smiles.*

wooosh!
i just got dada's mail.
omg! the vintage buttons are soooooo... beautiful!
i LOVEEEE them so much.

anyhoows.
got my new com.
like, finally!
heee. i can see dada online alrdy. webcam. finally!
sweet! =)

anyhoos.
just back from vivo.
collected my crabtree and evelyn membership card.
got some treats for that fat fat.
bot some chocos.
blah blah.
and oh. a top and a dresss.
dada will sure LOVE them.
i guarantee. =D

alrightly.
i need to do some project proposal research.
laters....


love you sugars.

La Dee Dumss!

hokays.
since im free in my lecture room now, (with no lecturers and no students), i shall update in here a lil.
school just freaked the shit outta me just now.
no class alocated.
as usual, (my trade), i panicked and went str8 to the student services to enquire about my class number.
yep. it was A1-17. Mr Pala's class.
but, i saw him in the next room (A1-18), and apparently, that class was not a project class!
gosh! all mixed up.
so yay, now im in here, alone.
typing away and waiting for some (hopefully) satisfying project lectures.
pffft.
i hate to wait, dada knows that right?

nihoos.

dada's coming home soon.
on the 17th.
YAY!
i cant wait! -prances ard-

and i just had my triangus (is this the right spelling? 0.0) pierced.
sore, but still fine.
dada find me sexier with that pierced.
tsk.
but then again, dada's gonna see me in smthg new when she comes back.
-grins-

Lect's not starting yet.
not anytime soon.
i think im goona bore to "death" here. literally.
and my panicky-ness has caused me to sweat so much, that i dun feel the coldness in the room at all.
im serious. my school's famous for full-blast aircon, and it can freeze the brain juice to ice.
that's how chilling it can get.
o wells.
i've prepared my sweater, so if i were to freeze anytime soon... i've got protection.
-grins widely-

my da's having lect now.
and im here in class, doing nothing.
how.... "hardworking".
busy typing away in blog that is.
pffffft.

anyhooos.

im off to rot.
and im off to daydream about our future.

loves...

TO MY SWEETEST LOVER:

baby! *waves. im so thrilled to seein u soon. i noe i've got a few more weeks.and i get all so excited thinking about it.
-ah choo-
its been gettin really cold recently. i rckn winter's knockin her way in already.my mates say it gets worse in that period too.im worried i mite get a mind freeze during the exams.-chuckles-
anyway, im really tired today. ytd nite was a nite out too late.i rckn. i havent finished my work. i nid to. but im so tired. -yawns-
baby, how are u?how are u holding up without me? i worry about this issue everyday.ur tears ytd, still rings in my head. and my heart hurts each time u cry.i think its love. -silly grin-
i promise u baby, a tear u will never shed when i come bk. i give everything i own, to u.
hang on! -throws a rope- im hauling u up. and im gona make sure u nvr fall alone,agen.

i love u.

do i love u enough baby?
do i love u perfectly?
do u expect more from me, baby?
coz'
i wanna love u perfectly.flawlessly.
i wanna be perfect for u.

and

i want to see ur smiles, hear ur laughter for as long as i live.

loves.

Joyce Jr. got really cold. she told me. i had to put on my beanie on her.doesnt she look pretty??

Joyce Jr. : "I'm cute and I want Tendy Jr. !!!"