i wish, time would stop.
so that the day would not come at all.
i know very well, that this will never occur.
thus, the pain in my heart.

i know of the different means of communication available.
MSN, Skype, phone, personal blog, bla bla.
but, sadly, it's never gonna be the same without her being physically here.
It will, never be the same.

i have tried to be strong. and not think too much about this ordeal i have to go thru, but, again, as the date draws nearer, im feeling more afraid and more, alone.

This is bad, i know. I have to be strong for her, for us.
But the thought of having to pass each day without her here, it's as painful as having a thousand knives pierced through my heart.

Imagine.

The excruciating pain. For her to bear as well, it's not fair.
I'd rather carry all the weight so she don't have to suffer.
God, help me on that.

Unbearable.

I wish i could just make everything better for the both of us.
Right now, all i can do, is pray.



im feeling helpless





++horrnny bitch