darling, it pains me so much to have u go through this pain. and still love me. i known u are torn by it all. but i will help u recover. help us recover from this. i love u still. so much. and i will never let this rship go down the drain. i love u too much to lose u. do u know that?
i cried so hard.till i shivered. the slightest thought of losing u, just drains me life off me. dont fear. trust me once again. i will never ever bear the thought of losing u. i will never let u lose this trust in me again.

forgive me my love,
for when i haf gotten into this rship, i will never back down from it. i will fight. i will fight to make u the happiest girl in the world.

im not procrastinating. i will. u will see it in time.

i love u dear.so much...

It was a total disappointment.

Was having a major issue with you just now.
Took Marijuana and assumed that i knew about it and totally approve of you ingesting it.

how presumptous.




i still love you.
But, i'm hurt.

da, that was a lovely entry that u have posted in our blog.
i love you so much, do you know that?
yes love, if there is one thing i can change, i would wanna change the date we met to earlier. so as we can both avoid being hurt by others.

but then again love, its better late than never, don't you agree?
-smiles-

im now at my grams.
talking to my lil one online.
how i miss her touch, her kisses.
OMG. and time really flies.
it's our 3 months alr.
-grins-

HAPPY 3 MONTHS LOVE!!!!!!!!!
-prances around happily-


i will update later.
i have a story to continue with my lover.
-winks.



adios!

Dearest baby,

the world has many worries, but my one worry is you. you have been my pillar to survive this world. in my past,i seek to live only to die. tragic as it sounds. but its true. i had nth in my life to await. i wanted to just keep on restartin and rebooting my life. that was before i knew i had you.

you have been the most dearest to me. none can match the love i have for you. you are perfect. and having been with you for 3mths. i see no wrong, no cons no unperfectness in you. i love u so much. your beauty is just mesmerizing. till this day i think about all the times we were together, how we enjoyed being in each others arms. the little smiles u drive at me. the lil tantrums u thrw at me, i would never miss it for the world. if i could re-live this life agen, i wouldnt wanna re-live it in any other way. but one thing, i would wanna change, is to love you earlier.

dar,happy 3months. and may i continue to have this luxury of loving you.

i have never seen someone who cud put down so much for me.make me feel this special.i cant ask for anything more frm you. but that we will spend eternity together.

baby, the future is not going to be easy.if we walk thru this path, we will not fail to come across so many disapprovals, so many obstacles.I know it will be hard. and i noe it has been difficult for u alrdy. the distance and all. but i wanna thank you for holding up till so long. i will learn to be strong. like you. my wife, my lover. my life.
i need you darling. i need ur love so much. i'd wither and die without it.

i will always love you.now and forever

yours to love forever,
dada

Ah... suppose to study for a bit. im seeing balls and penises all the way..... do u noe, by default, everyone is female? that is so cool. that means, love. if there isnt that hormone that changes to male. the whole world will be females. how marvellous is that.
a world without dicks/penises. whoopee!
grins.
i love my girl. -blush-
i love her precious. -blush-
i love u

bad things been happening to me lately.
unexpectedly, great-grandma passed on, in her sleep.
5 days of funeral wasnt easy for me to hang on, for the fact that we had to go on without sleep for 5 consecutive days.
short naps didnt work either.

i was totally emotionally and physically drained.

however, my 5 days were made easier to pass with my dearest being on the phone with me. she definitely made me feel so much better during that 5 days of mourning.

The last day of the funeral, was the worst.
especially during creamtion at teh crematorium.
i had to control my emotional weakness to comfort my mum who was crying her eyes out.
PLus, the time we had to collect the ashes.
heart-ache.

the 5 days didnt just end exactly at the 5th day.
the following subsequent days were not as easy.
with the prayers that we need to attend.
and the missing my great-grandma part.
and to accept the fact that my great-grandma's not here anymore.

i miss her voise. i miss her presence. i miss her everything.

i just wish she wouldnt have to suffer anymore in her other realm.

rest in peace.



i'm talking to my greatest lover in the whole world now.
haven had the time to update because of the recent happening.
the next few days after the funeral, we tried to calm ourselves down.
we went to eat and i had to bring my mum out so that she doesn't think so much.
Plus, my uncle and his wife from HK came back for the funeral.

my baby's having hols till 5th april, and my stupid school has yet to reply to my email as to when to register for my class.

pfffft.

im hungry and im waiting for mum to come back from work.
fat fat's been neglected for the past few days, soi had to make it up to her.

ok. im done updating for now.
laters.

i noe for the fact that dardar cant see me. and hasnt seen my face in ages. and yet, she can still love me and not complain that she cant see me. i hope these few pics of me would help u my love.











Finally, a kiss for my baby!

im worried.but i like worrying for her. i love her so much. too much. she makes me so happy and im at my height of happiness when im with her. No matter how much she can throw a fit at me, i will go all out to support her and talk to her. i love her too much.
Dar, i now u are going through a tough time and i noe it hurts so much.too much. And i noe that i cant be with u physically. But everything is part and parcel of life dear, people come and go.but i will stay. thing is dar, we will never noe what would be ahead.for us. for everyone, we just have to appreciate the times now and never regret it. and coz dar, i never regretted meeting u and having this chance to love u so much. Truth is, i do want to grow old with u. I wont say it wud be the easiest route possible, but we haf each other ayte baby? I love u dear. and fucking microsoft word is pissing me now. argh.
anyway dar, i love u so so much. and i promise, i will be here for u when u need me.
i will love u, worry abt u, care for u, make u happy.
and u in turn must be my healthy lil gal.k?
love u.

yours always,
dada

*Lifts baby off the ground*

boredom has literally killed me over here. my baby isn feeling well agen. shes such a sweet lil thing.. i dont see how anybody, wud gif up loving her. but im glad they did. because i now haf this opportunity to love her, worry for her, and care for her.
Just been thru a lecture with loads to see on penises and vaginas. well, and teasing. which i honestly think its plain inhumane.
i prefer natural selection.
-breaks into a long brawl-
i mean true enuff, u evolutionarize but there is a big difference between having to naturally select due to changes in the environment,not subjected to human intervention. and having to haf humans pokin ur arses arnd to go fuck the cows. and yeh, determine if ther dick is workin. wot sense is in that. and if their dicks dont work, u eliminate them? is there humanity in that? yeh, we want good produce. we want nice beef. we want yummy milk. but wud u consider that a luxury? a luxury we obtain frm the usage of animals in such a manner.
damm, we shud all be just vegetarians. the world has seen enuff of sick ppl. we are all the likes of Ed Gein.pfft.its just that, we dont get caught, because, its technically, rightfully perfect to do it.

pffffttt..

ayte, i'll stop goin on abt techicality.
hi love! im missing u! u look gorgeous even in ur crankiest moods. i hope i can always be the one to cheer u up. u are my solace, my moon, my rock. u are my forever.
i love u.and pls look after urself.

The world was made perfect by you. u will always be in my heart. never fear, i will never love u less. never. take care ayte swts
do me one thing, u must must must take care of urself and be careful. that is the only one thing i want, no. i DEMAND frm you. *grins
cya!
*kisses

===== Your Baby Forever=======

the pain is worth it. its for u baby

darling, i really missed u. im talkin to u as we speak. im so thankful for u to be here with me. in my life.and i love so so much. dear these 2 tattoos are for u. only u, only u can see it. i hope this would turn u on. :p.







and this video, is for u. i took it wheni got bored stdyin. dar,i promise u i will always come bk for u. i wanna spend my life with u forever.
wait for me baby. i love u.

yeapie hooos.
im here to do some updating.
am at my grams place. just had lunch at some penang eatery.
having really bad sorethroat.
coughed my lungs out the whole night yesterday.
pffft.

da's somewhere out there. no replying to my msn msgs.
bet she's either sleeping or mugging.
dadada! i miss you. =)

i am guna start falling aslp soon.
sleepy.... sleepy.
till i cant speak properly.
yawns.

zzz.


finally, dada replied me
yayhoooosss!

im off to talk to my lil one.
adios!



+yourhornnybitch.

short entry before i start to read my music notes.
da's still having practical now.

things i've done for the 1st half of the day so far....?
run errands for mum.
let that big fat ass rat out for playtime.
and starting to read my music notes.
(AND not forgetting thinking about my lil one while doing those chores... hee)

im getting bored.
i shall hit on my notes now.
adios.



you are my superman.

++yourhornybittch.

baby, you do magic to my life.
you paint a perfect picture in my heart.
noone can sweep me off my feet the way you do.
you never fail to amaze me with your love.
your undying love, your tender loving care.
your strong assurance, your consistent reminders about taking care of myself.
your everything just tkaes my breathe away, d'ya know that?
you are just the most wonderful gift to me. my miracle.
my most beautiful angel.
i love you dear.

Today, is yet another boring day.
Rainy weather, cold.
baby's having her lecture now.
Can only talk to her about 3ish singapore.
i miss her sooooo much!

dada, get ready, because you might receive another letter from me... reallll sooooon. =)

gym tonight.
need to work out for abit.
have been eating too much lately. good thing, because da's been wanting me to eat more, and da has actually put on weight.
but, keeping healthy and regular workouts are still necessary.

okays. even my fat fat at home also need to exercise.
i'm letting her out for a run soon.
she's growing too huge.
yes dear, thanks to the mummy. pffft.

ciaoz.


baby, you r my 8th world wonder.... =)

++your hornny bitcccch