bad things been happening to me lately.
unexpectedly, great-grandma passed on, in her sleep.
5 days of funeral wasnt easy for me to hang on, for the fact that we had to go on without sleep for 5 consecutive days.
short naps didnt work either.

i was totally emotionally and physically drained.

however, my 5 days were made easier to pass with my dearest being on the phone with me. she definitely made me feel so much better during that 5 days of mourning.

The last day of the funeral, was the worst.
especially during creamtion at teh crematorium.
i had to control my emotional weakness to comfort my mum who was crying her eyes out.
PLus, the time we had to collect the ashes.
heart-ache.

the 5 days didnt just end exactly at the 5th day.
the following subsequent days were not as easy.
with the prayers that we need to attend.
and the missing my great-grandma part.
and to accept the fact that my great-grandma's not here anymore.

i miss her voise. i miss her presence. i miss her everything.

i just wish she wouldnt have to suffer anymore in her other realm.

rest in peace.



i'm talking to my greatest lover in the whole world now.
haven had the time to update because of the recent happening.
the next few days after the funeral, we tried to calm ourselves down.
we went to eat and i had to bring my mum out so that she doesn't think so much.
Plus, my uncle and his wife from HK came back for the funeral.

my baby's having hols till 5th april, and my stupid school has yet to reply to my email as to when to register for my class.

pfffft.

im hungry and im waiting for mum to come back from work.
fat fat's been neglected for the past few days, soi had to make it up to her.

ok. im done updating for now.
laters.