Many times, i dreaded the fact that time has to fly by too quickly.
I wished, that time would come to a standstill when im enjoying my time with *her.
I know, that this time round, when she's back, it would be the same as the first.
But the thought of her leaving me for the 2nd time, it kills.
Noone can ever understand the feeling of having to bear the pain of long distance.
The torture, the turmoil, the pain, and the longing of being able to hold each other again.
They are nothing compared to having a thousand pins in the underneath of your skin.
Hundred times worse, or rather, a million.

For the past 7 months that we have been together, i strongly admit, i have been really happy.
But, the horrendous thought of *her having to leave me for australia, still battered and bruised me.
literally.
I bet, she feels the same way too.
we are, still human afterall.

I have never felt so much emotions before.
not even when i was with my previous someone else.
She made me special, she made me feel special.
She made this love special.

She has made me feel so much more.
It feels like, I'm more human than usual.
I can feel the pain, the love, the joy, the laughter.
when im with *her.
She makes me whole.

I couldnt bear for saturday to come.
because, thats the day when i have to come to the fact that i cant hold her for 4 months until she's back for the 2nd hols.
I hated the feeling of having to be here alone in singapore, while she's in australia.
I hated the fact that i have to see couples walking along the streets hand in hand while mine is in another part of the world.
And i hated the fact that i have to make do with webcam, just seeing her face over the screen, but yet, unable to feel her warmth and feel her touch.
And i hated the fact that, i could not kiss her and whisper into her ears the three words "i love you".

All the facts, which we have to bear, is just tearing me up inside.

I just wish, that god understands, the feelings we are going through.

And lastly, i just want *her to know, that I love *her so much, that i'm willingly ready, to lay my love and life, for *her.